Awesome day!

Call me crazy.. I love Mondays! I love a fresh starting week. It just feels good. Still need to go get my computer virus fixed. Ugh! Today was quite honestly the first nice day Denver has had since Thanksgiving. Yesterday was ok but today was fantastic! I know I bitch about the cold a lot but I really do hate it. I love sun and warmth, it just makes everything better. I hope this doesn't sound morbid but I was just excited to be alive today cause I was so blissfully happy. Have you seen the Geico commercial with the little pig zip lining and he is weeeeeeee'ing? "Pure adrenalin" LOL That is me on the inside most of the time.. especially today. Somewhere between 2010 and 11 I could've so easily been dead so many times due to my irresponsible recklessness. Here I am alive to look back on my stupidity and so happy that I am on the other side of that shit. After I backed out of my last Olympia I lost myself on purpose with the purpose of not feeling or dealing with anything that was really happening and hurting me. Shit still hurts, time does not heal all but I obviously cope with it without the stupidity now. That alone creates happiness.

Yeah, so I am in love with Twitter. I confess. I finally gave into getting an account a few days ago and now I am addicted. Maybe I should really be dating a person rather than my computer (To keep it interesting I cheat on my computer with my phone. Its really hot an juicy stuff.). At least I can't catch my computers virus. I wish back in my rock star/super star days I would've had mobile internet to keep up with mail cause now it is so easy but I don't get as much attention like I did then. I am very happy with how the blog is doing with growing in popularity. I do read all your messages, post, and mail. Very appreciated. Notoriety is a funny thing. In today's world it can make you famous. Look at all the shows on tv now. The most random people are becoming fascinating. As much as I have cursed the little bit I have in the past, I am enjoying it now. Like I've said; when you lose everything you get a new perspective on everything. :) I have a great understanding of appreciation.

So I start my kickboxing training this week! I am super excited. Ive been wanting to do this forever. I want to do so many things I get almost.. unraveled. I am very mindful of how scattered I can be so I'm organizing and prioritizing my goals. Ok so still, I am a little messy. LOL Next I am going to go back to dance lessons next month.. ahhhhh! :) Surfing is coming soon. On a not so action packed thought so is school. Yawn! Rebuilding life mid thirties.. its not SO bad. Maybe not what I had planned but like the Joseph Campbell quote; you must let go of the life you had planned to accept the one that is waiting for you.

In memory of my rock star days.. oh jeez I thought I was so hot at 23! Silly girl!